A Big Fat Rant, I’m Sorry Everyone

I have to get this off my chest before I explode!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had my second interview today and it was meant to be easier than the one before. I fucking wish! Massive apologies go out to all, I’m going to have the rant of the century.

1. Why the hell didn’t I get the nice, quirky interviewers from yesterday?! They were nice awesome people who completely and utterly understood me and the way my brain works, the interviewers who praised me for being ‘fascinating’ and ‘abstract’.

2. How is it relevant to ask if the Nazi’s were the ‘elephant in the room’? I know this is Oxford but fucking hell, please! Even if I knew what was meant by an elephant in the room, I still wouldn’t know how to answer your godforsaken question!!!

3. Why on earth do they make us interviewees sit on a sofa whilst we’re being interviewed? Its so bloody comfortable you can’t think!!

4. I knew this was going to go wrong at some point, and today was it. I am literally kicking myself, because I was frightened as hell and they knew it. One of the guys was like a rottweiler with a bone, tearing away at me until I wanted to cry

5. Not once in these last 2 days of interviews have I been asked the questions I was told to expect. So all of that preparation done on why I wanted to study history, why I wanted to go to LMH and why I wanted to go to Oxford in the first place was pointless. My interviews at this college are over now, so I’ve gone and wasted all of my time revising for something I didn’t need! Grrrrrrrrrrrr

6. My bloody radiator still isn’t working, after being here for 2 days in the freezing cold up here with a draughty window right by my desk, where I spend most of my time. So instead of a radiator, I have an electric heater plugged into the wall that smells like gas and looks so rickety it probably isn’t that far away from setting the room alight.

Worst mood ever, its so annoying. And after having the best day ever yesterday. I know after that pathetic excuse of an interview that they probably won’t offer me a place. And that makes me hate myself more than you could possibly imagine, as well as hating those who will undoubtedly make the decision.

Need to go find a cup of tea and some chocolate before I combust, I hate today

xx

NaNoWriMo, Schoolwork, Tests, Uni Offers and Sleep

Sorry for having not posted in a while, have been supremely busy.

Happy Guy Fawkes’ Night/Bonfire Night to all reading this. I’ll be sitting at home annoyed at the noise and sleeping, sheltered from the chilliness and potential rain. I really don’t do well outside when its cold or raining. I use it as an excuse to hole myself up in my room with a good book and some music, wrapped up warm and relaxing. Which in a way makes me love winter 🙂

I had my History Aptitude Test on Wednesday for Oxford. My application is riding on a good score in that. I really do sincerely hope that I’ve done okay in the exam despite having a major headache and the shakes. I think it went reasonably well, and I grasped the use of the sources well. We shall have to wait and see. According to Buzz Lightyear, I shall find out whether I have done well enough to get an interview. I really hope I have, the more I think about it, the more I want to go to Oxford, simply for the academia. It would be heaven to a history geek like me. If I don’t get in, it won’t be the end of the world, but I would really like to get the opportunity to go. I probably wouldn’t fit in there with my fondness for swear words at inopportune moments and my pronunciation of some words which is occasionally comically common. But I think I would love every minute.

Spent the majority of my Friday night last night reading a book about the Nazi’s, because I know how to live right? Thought so, only cool kids do that (in the sarcastic sense) and doing some source work on Weimar Germany, which was fun (I’m lying). Spent my morning writing my history essay on the Cold War, which was freakishly long and a pain in the bum, but not as hard as I thought it was going to be. Hoping for a better grade than a C on that (I got a C last time and almost had a nervous breakdown – C’s are an alien concept to me). Going to spend the rest of my day doing some reading with the music on and doing some more writing for my NaNoWriMo novel.

Quick intro to the concept of NaNoWriMo. Its a writing challenge where you write a 50,000 word novel in the 30 days that make up November. Its easier than it sounds, and no there isn’t a prize if you manage it. It exists so that you can write in a hurry without the focus for perfection. You just write, and you don’t edit until December. I did it last year and decided to do it again this year because of how much I enjoyed it and the finished product. Currently, in the 5 days that there have been in November, I’ve written 10,002 words. I plan on writing another 5,000 odd words today and tomorrow, preferably all today. But it all depends on whether I get writers block. Usually happens, and I can never figure how to get it to go.

So here is the synopsis for my story. Predictably, its history based (what else were you expecting from me lol?)

Lady Matilda Beauchamp, Countess of Pembroke is cousin to the King of England, Henry VIII. She returns from France after being sent there for 2 years to lap up the sumptuous lifestyle at the English court that being the cousin of the King provides. After keeping a promise to her cousin of remaining pure and virtuous, she is promised a husband. Placing her whole future in the hands of her dearest cousin was something she did not need to think twice about. His judgement is everything to her. His Majesty declares that no man, whether noble or otherwise, no matter how powerful they are, are permitted to make her his mistress, for her virtue must remain intact. And so the King must find her a husband. As he searches for noble men appropriate for her hand, he notices a blossoming romance between his cousin and closest friend. Will he allow this love to blossom? Or will things have a way of hastening themselves, making the conclusion inevitable, for Matilda’s future and her reputation? To avoid scandal or welcome it is the decision that must be made.7

Oooooooh I wonder. I may post a chapter of it up on here at some point, once I’ve finished it. Perhaps I will post a chapter a day in December until I get to the end of the story.

For a while now my UCAS has been sent off, and have started to get offers back. I’ve got one from UWE (University of the West of England in Bristol) of 320 points, which is the equivalent of ABB, and Brunel, who have offered me BBB. I’m incredibly happy to have received offers from them. I am waiting on 3 more offers, one from Oxford (which if I do get one, I probably won’t get until January), Bristol and Kent. Fingers crossed, am really holding out for Oxford and Kent, they’re my favourites :)7

Hope everyone has a nice weekend. I’ll be doing a lot of sleeping, have been put on new drugs for my hypermobile achy joints, which predictably aren’t working but are giving me drowsy sleepy side effects. That made driving yesterday fun….

xx